[dA update] Noteworthy Progress!

This week has been a great week, this morning a good morning and now here's something wonderful developing! As I've stated in previous recent writings, DHARMARAJA has been in a funk and I've continued to ask for your support -- for which those who have accepted that call, I will thank very specifically further on down in this journal. Though her wall is still up, with your help -- a small dent has been put into it and I am thrilled to see it!

One thing you need to understand about Richelle, is that there isn't anything she does that lacks intention and purpose. She is by default, naturally and with no need for "efforting" and "trying" -- a genius. Though she has been a wonderful and amazing friend, I am not saying this as a form of praise, I am saying this as a matter of fact backed by empirical evidence. Empirical evidence, also known as sense experience, is the knowledge or source of knowledge acquired by means of the senses, particularly by observation and experimentation. The term comes from the Greek word for experience, ἐμπειρία (empeiría).

So I say this exactly as I would say: the grass is green, the sky is blue, rocks are hard, water is wet and fire burns.

What she posts on Social Media and deviantART, always has method to the madness,. It is not ever arbitrary. It is not ever thoughtless. It is not ever meaningless. It is not ever purposeless. There is always a clear intention, be that intention conscious or a subconscious reaction on her part -- everything she says and does is always with purpose. Even to the extent that every inaction and everything she does not do, equally is with profound purpose.

I am the same way so I can relate to her, though not everyone is the same way so people such as her and I are used to the majority of other people not only "not being able to understand this" -- but also viewing this as ideological delusion and ridiculousness. There is a difference between doing art as a form of physical action, and having the soul of an artist. If one does not have the soul of an artist then one is not living life as art and art as life and therefore, such people will not relate to these experiences. Nor will they be able to comprehend them.

When Richelle is at war with herself, she can not help but also be at war with her own art and creative aspects, for they are one and the same. There is no separation between "self" and "art". So the deeper the funk, the more she avoids creating art and the more she avoids uploading to deviantART. When she is in full high self esteem, your deviantART Message Center will be constantly flooded with outpours of artistic awesomeness from her profile.

When she is at war with herself, these battles are not won with the flip of a switch. It is not like "okay its over now". It happens in stages, just as the rain storm moves across the land. It is not that the storm is there one minute and gone the next. Not unless you're in Florida where that literally happens, but there are exceptions to every rule

Her art always clearly shows what is going on inside of her, for those who know how to understand what is being said. Her and I have become very close friends with countless hours of deep meaningful Skype conversations so I can say with certainty that I understand her and she understands me.

Today she has not only uploaded some new art, but also submitted that art to my group, LightWorkers. This is a very positive sign that she is slowly starting to take the steps to face inside of herself the things she needs to face. This is a process over time. Those of you who have answered my call to assist with your positive reinforcement, have helped to put a dent in her wall and have helped her to take the next baby step towards recovery. She is not magically suddenly "over it all" but she is making progress. She would not have uploaded anything much less submitted it to my group if progress was not being made and yes, I know her well enough to know.

The titles of her art uploads also speak volumes to the things she is facing and the paradigms she is processing. As I've said, nothing she does is without meaningful purpose.

So before I move into my thank you credits to all of those who have assisted in raising her spirits up a little more, I want to go over some of her art and translate it for you. To me its obvious, for some of you it might not be, hence my "translations". The text she adds into her descriptions is but one layer of what she is expressing. There is always multiple simultaneous meaning. As I said, she is a very purposeful lady. Brilliant. A genius. Awesome.

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This one is called "Almost" and she writes "The reason why this is called Almost, is because Aldarog96 thought this piece was almost as beautiful as I am. So I kinda melted a little but also really liked it as a name because it causes the viewer to wonder what is it almost to."

The viewer may wonder but for me it is quite clear. She has a lot of trouble accepting her own beauty, both her physical beauty and the beauty of who she is as a person. The inspiring, wise, wonderful, awesome artistic bad-ass that makes her being her, just amazing. What she is used to and familiar with, is judging herself harshly. Being unkind to herself. Fearing that others might stop loving her if even the slightest word, thought, feeling, belief or action is just slightly out of sync with their expectations. So she has had a long term habit of pushing away friends, pushing away family, pushing away good things, pushing away blessings. In fact, it is the good things that create more anxiety for her than anything bad ever could. That feeling of the good things being like a delusion from which she will be awoken when "the other shoe drops". Like Marvin The Martian waiting for the great big kaboom as he affirms to himself that there is always supposed to be one. That this kaboom, is the only real reality.

So now she is "almost" to the point of being able to more fully accept herself. Almost to the point of accepting that there does not always have to be a big kaboom. Almost to the point of dropping her walls and letting friends in. Almost to the point of being willing to take the risk of being fully herself. Almost to the point of being brave enough for direct clear communication with those whom she has been afraid to speak. Almost to the point of giving up self abuse and self generated suffering. Almost however, is a relative term. This could take 2 days, 2 weeks, 2 months or 2 years. It is up to her and no one can say how long this will take her, or not. But what I can say is that her experiences with Aldarog96 have made these things a little more real to her today, that they were 2 months ago. It is progress,

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The title "As Above So Below" is chosen as a recognition of an idea that she finds wondrously fantastic, and equally terrifying. In her conversations with me, she has told me countless stories of her own experiences with what I like to term "The Quantum Mirror". That reality is a fractal. That everything mirrors everything else. The trap we all get caught up in when we either refuse to see this, or we see it but refuse to accept it -- is we try to "comb the mirror". Imagine looking into your bathroom mirror and trying to comb your hair, by taking the brush and putting it to the mirror instead of your head? Imagine having a belief that this is the only way you can comb your hair, as you become perpetually aggravated with your repeated failures. Imagine someone telling you "umm, try putting the brush to your head instead of the mirror" and having that very notion sound to you as if it was ridiculous crazy talk. This is what humans do to themselves. This is what Richelle recognizes she has done to herself, a lot. The Quantum Mirror can be a really cool and useful tool, like a GPS of sorts, to give us better clarity as to what is going on both internally and externally in our lives. It can also be terrifying when we choose to shun it, because it is always on and always working, whether we like it or not. It never takes coffee breaks. Quantum Physics is not capable of taking breaks.

This art upload shows me that she is moving back into recognition that it is not me, her friends, her parents or anything nor anyone on the external that she is trying to run from. She is moving back into the recognition that she has only been running from herself. She has told me many times she knows this. That she hates doing this to herself. That she is so sick of doing it over and over again. That she is sick of always doing what she's always done to always get what she's always gotten. I am 2,000+ miles away from her. She has Aldarog96 in person. This is a game changer. This will make a positive difference in her life. He can show her what I can not. He can prove to her what I can not. At least, as long as she is willing.

There is only so much one can do from 2,000+ miles away. I am thankful she has Aldarog96 to do that which I can not.

Though every photo expresses her paradigms, I will cover only 2 more. You can goto her gallery to see the rest. Don't try to "figure out what her art means" -- just observe it for what it is. Her points hide in plain sight. Open your eyes and your mind, equally.

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She misses the green, but is anxious for the snow -- as she says. This previous summer had been a halmark of her personal progress. The bravest she's ever been, the highest self esteem she's ever had and the best my friendship with her has ever been. This summer, was amazing and rightly so -- is to be missed, not only for the beauty of summer itself, but the beauty of the progress that was made during that time.

She is anxious for the snow, she loves and fears the contrast. She understands the contrast is a valid part of life. She is in one respect, not looking forward to the winter of finally facing herself and doing what she has been terrified to do. But on the same token, looking forward to the beneficial knowledge and wisdom it will bring, knowing that it won't be too long before the Spring time once again arrives. That a life experience is not a life sentence.

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A calm water fall among the storm of a busy urban center filled with people, but also a calm water fall of love and support that you all have helped me shower her with, among a storm of her own fears and old habits, filled with the constructs and walls that she has spent so many years building up around her to keep people out, and to keep her away from the greater part of herself. She needs the contrast right now as a proving ground, because without evidence that she can handle the bad, she can not embrace the good.

Before I move into my "thank you credits" I would like to share a video that I also shared in my previous journal, because it is also so incredibly relevant here as well. My thanks to ZED-EYE for sharing this video with me in a note.



My thanks to the following people for adding her to watch and telling her lovely true things about herself and her art!



If there is anyone not listed here that should be, my apologies as it was not intentional.

If you're reading this and you're not watching DHARMARAJA then I'd suggest you go check out her art. You won't regret it!


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